Demi Lovato is known for her soulful songs and powerful voice that brings her listeners to tears but she is also known for being open about her mental health issues and addiction to alcohol and drugs. It all started when she shot to fame during her Disney Channel days but in 2010 things took a turn for the worse and she checked herself into rehab, where she was officially diagnosed with bipolar disorder and treated for addiction, self-harm and bulimia. At one of the worst times in her life, she admitted to depending on cocaine to get her through the day, forcing her to take the drug everywhere she went, including aeroplanes.
After finally gaining the strength to fight her addiction, she committed to remaining sober which she was able to maintain for six years. Recently, though, fans started asking questions when singer Hayley Kiyoko posted a group photo to Instagram where Lovato was seen holding a glass but she responded to the questions about her sobriety saying: “I don’t have to defend anything but it was Red Bull.”
Every year of her sobriety is marked with a social media post for her fans with the most recent reading: “Just officially turned 6 years sober. So grateful for another year of joy, health and happiness. It IS possible.” However, Lovato has been honest saying that there have been times when she has been tempted to give in to her addiction, revealing her terrible experience at the 2016 Met Gala when she texted her manager and then immediately attended an Alcoholics Anonymous meeting that same night.
“What keeps me on this path is there’s a drive that I have to stay sober because I know that my life depends on it,” Lovato told Entertainment Tonight last year. “If I would have continued down that road, I don’t know if I’d be here today.”
But Lovato released an unexpected single on Thursday called Sober, which appears to be a very personal song admitting to her relapse after six years of sobriety. The song includes soft vocals sung over a violin and piano. The Sober lyrics start with, "I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore." The song then goes on to explain the complication of her addiction, "It's only when I'm lonely," she admits. "Sometimes I just want to cave and I don't want to fight." The video begins with a blurry flashback of the previous evening and events throughout Lovato's life, intermittently cutting back to a messy room with empty bottles of alcohol.
Lovato's friends and family immediately responded with messages of support, with Iggy Azalea saying she was "here" for Lovato adding, “I pray you’ll choose recovery again. All of us who love you only want to see you happy and healthy.” Azalea posted another photo, reminiscing Lovato's celebration when had been sober for six years in March saying, “I was there the day we sung you happy birthday for 6 years sober. I jumped a random persons face in my PJs to come get you, even when you had no clue I was gonna pop up on your ass. Lmao. I am prepared to keep doing crazy s— b*tch. deal with it cause I love you.”
While the admission of relapse is heartbreaking, she adds in the Sober lyrics, "I'm sorry that I'm here again. I promise I'll get help."